So its been a week or two since I've posted, but seeing as no one follows this blog yet, I don't think it matters. Not a whole lot has happened since the last post, but I'll go ahead and talk about my week and post my new week's menu.
In the last post I talked about my recent knee surgery and recuperation - its getting stronger, but not as quickly as I would like. My knee cap is still doing that funky sliding thing and when I talked to the doc about it again (well, via his secretary leaving me a message) he said that he wants to send me to physical therapy which I'm not thrilled about. I'm sure they're pretty expensive and I'm still trying to pay off the original surgery bills...not a happy camper. He said my knee cap is used to all that junky tissue being in there, and now that its gone the knee cap doesn't know where to sit, so its sliding all around. I'll probably wait for another week or so to see if it gets any better before I decide for or against the physical therapy. This didn't happen last time I had the knee scope - but then again the doc said there was a good possibility that they didn't get out all the tissue the last time, so it was probably worse off than before my scope in high school. Yesterday I was walking from the piano in my classroom to my desk and when I stepped on my left leg I cried out in pain and nearly collapsed to the floor. That's not normal...my poor accompanist was right there next to me and had to catch me.
Last week was a difficult one for me. Aug 31 marked the 1 year anniversary of my father's heart attack, followed by Sept 6 being the anniversary of his death. During the week was difficult, I felt very much alone and missing him a great deal. I was reliving the memories and happenings of our time with him in the hospital the week before he died. On the up side though, it wasn't all bad, painful memories...my siblings and I posted many many things on facebook that were wonderful, happy memories, and they made us smile and remember him so fondly. I had a very bittersweet moment with my 8th grade choir also. We were rehearsing a section of one of our songs, "The Journey," and when I picked out the music prior to school starting the words hadn't really meant anything to me. The words to the song are, "Though the road has been so long, now I'm going home...to the place where I belong, I'm going home...going home, going home, I am going home." And with the already difficult week, the music and the words hit me out of no where like a sack of bricks, and I started crying right there. But of course, it was so lovely, so I didn't want to cut them off, so I kept directing while crying, and my poor students didn't know what to do - they were looking around at each other wondering if they should stop or keep going. I finally cut them off and explained to them what was going on. Most of them were with me last year when it happened and they were understanding and sympathetic. So afterwards we were able to have a wonderful teaching moment where I could actually show them how music can move you and effect you in a way that almost nothing else in the world can. And then after that we were able to laugh about it b/c one of my students said, "Ms. Steinert we thought you were crying b/c we sounded so bad..." Haha - we all got a kick out of that.
We didn't have school on Monday, which was the anniversary of my father's death, and I had spent the weekend with my mother at home, which was very nice. On the way home that day I drove in silence and took in all the country scenery. My dad loved being outside, and he loved nature and it was very refreshing, while still a little painful, to try and focus on all the things that I love about him, miss about him and the things my family has said about him over the past year. I miss you so much daddy~
So, with Monday being Labor day, we didn't have school, so we have a short school week, which is nice. But I'm having such a difficult time with one of my choirs and their interest in singing. I need and want to make my classes more fun all around - but I'm not that creative of a person, so I'll need to do some research and looking into it...music and choir was always fun for me, so I didn't ever need to be entertained in other ways during choir or band...I realize that not all kids are going to like being in choir, although some really do, but it still makes me sad when they aren't enjoying singing. I'm sure the more I teach the more I'll get over that - and still find ways to make it fun for those who are usually bored. One idea I got today from the high school band director was giving out silly bands for those who knew their part and knew it well. I loved that idea, and silly bands are SOOOO in right now, I think the kids will eat it up! I wonder how much they are, I think I have to be sure to get some.
I'm very much looking forward to my weekend to get some much needed rest...I have been waking up every night, several times during the night, and I don't know why! It makes me mad and sleeping and not want to get up in the morning, so my prayer time this week has suffered greatly! I've been asking for better discipline and this is probably how God is answering my prayers...trying to make me stronger by making things more difficult :) For when we pray for things, does God give them to us or does He give us opportunities for us to show these qualities. Haha...we'll see how I do next week I guess.
Lastly, here is my week of meals - even though its now Thursday, and the week is almost over, here it is anyway:
Monday - I don't remember what I had for dinner, but I planned on this day, so it wasn't in my plan - haha
Tuesday - Hamburger Quiche
Wednesday - leftovers
Thursday - SAI meeting-eating pizza there
Friday - home made pizza (mom's recipe)
Saturday - grilled salmon and baked potato
Sunday - Tacos
I bought some soy beans at the store and so I think I'm going to try a chinese appetizer recipe too - yum!
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